Praying Hard

I'm praying hard for something to materialise.
Its a major step, and I just hope this time, it will be successful.
Pls let me have it my way this time.
If the deal works out, I believe this can be considered a new chapter.

Training ?

Some guy asked me this mrn whether I'm training for a marathon. Huh ? He said he sees me every day at the gym swimming etc. Errrr ... the only thing I'm 'training' for is to burn off the FATS ...

marathon cannot be further from my mind :P

I can hardly run 4km now I think ...

My Latest Fantasy cum Wish List

Am I the only one who is so restless like 99% of the time ?

Lunching in today ... so daydreaming a little before I start the 2nd half of the day ....
Its these things that keep me going really .... (what else?)

1. Piaget Possession













2. Rolex Datejust pearlmaster







Yes, this is definitely a fantasy because no way will I be able to afford this! Or at least to fork out good hard earn money for these. These are way out of my league. But doesn't mean I can't drool over them. Just like how I drool over a Porsche or a BMW 6 series. Haha!

Yay!

Corrinne May singing at this year's NDP!
Wow!! :)

Monday Bluezzz

Thank God Monday is almost over!

Been a rather productive day.

Ran a short 2.4km on the treadmill. Did an RPM class followed by a short 25 mins swim.

The swim was tough today. Somehow the arms felt like lead and hurt with every stroke.

Work was surprisingly busy in the afternoon with discussions over IM with three separate colleagues. Two on design discussions, while the other on documentations follow-up and audit. Not to mention my own work. I was typing away furiously on my keyboard. But it was a good afternoon and I felt good that things are progressing. *thumbs up*

Not looking forward to tomorrow though. Mtg at 1pm (darn that organiser !). Interviewing a candidate with boss at 6:30pm. I don't even find this candidate suitable! Sigh, don't understand my boss. Waste time.

Heard another tragic news just. So sad. May she rest in peace. Finally.

Waste time

Why waste more time if situation is NOT gg to improve?! Kid urself not. The frustration just manifests.

THIS is just a downhill slide. The descent is surprisingly fast n steep

Has it been this long ??

Is it just me or is 2010 just passing by at lightning speed ?

We are 2 days into July and I realised I haven't been blogging for like over 6 months. Not that I have much to blog really, since I've hung up my running shoes. No, it wasn't really a deliberate attempt, just that I somehow lost the motivation to run.

I looked back at those days when I run to work every Tues and Thurs mrn and all I can do is marvel at myself for my perseverance then. And where did I get that energy ? And to think I even spin after the run ??
And I still looked back to the good old days when I run with the gang. It seemed so long ago it felt almost like a part of a dream. Hehe

I'm not sure when I'll get back to running, or if I ever will, but til then, my running shoes are a constant reminder to me ... that I'm slacking :P

Been hibernating mostly for a while. Only achievement I did was to sign up for a course and get myself certified. So now I can add another 3 characters to the end of my name. Does that help ? I am not sure, but at least I learn something in the course. So I'm satisfied.

May go study for something else, but that depends on whether i can get my act together and stopped being such a bummer!

Realised I didn't stepped out of SG for the past 6 months. So time to regroup and plan my next long vacation. Perhaps Europe ? Perhaps Japan again ? But its time to plan.

Within 1 week, there is news to rejoice, and news that sadden me.
- Congrats to my fav journalist on her getting married. I'm really beaming when I read about this happy news on Friday's newspapers. Did cheer me up a bit. But led me to think what then about my life ? haha silly me.

- the heartbreaking news is when I found my fav guy married also. Sigh. What sad news. Married an NUS lecturer, held wedding in Sentosa. I'm shattered.

Ok, now back to reality.

Pick Me Up-per

She is sooooooooooooooooooooo cute!

Random

You may never thought anything of something until you have it, and all of a sudden, u realise u can't do without it. Case in point, my iphone. I never know it can be such a big part of me, but now that I have it, I don't want to part with it. There are always new apps to play with, to explore, to make your daily life even more interesting/fun. Ok maybe this applies to bummers like me who doesn't have much to look fwd to each day haha.

The inverse applies. Time heals, or in other words, it dilutes. Think only i know what i'm writing, but ok, the old lady just needs to ramble.

Happy Mother's Day!

This post is dedicated to my mom.  The one most important person in my life.

Thanks for being the best mom I could ever ask for.  

For always giving your children the best

For always putting us above yourself

For always taking good care of us

For always worrying about us (although I sincerly wish you can quit worrying, Mom!)

For always forgiving us, no matter our mistakes

For always being there for us

For always believing in us

Thank you Mom. *hugz*

Happy Valentines Day!

I'm so glad that V-Day falls on a weekend this year!  So I'm happily hiding out at home, not having to be out (at work) and having to "suffer" seeing everyone all lovey dovey, receiving flowers etc.  Haha ... nope, not jealous, just a little embarrassed :P

Anyway, I'm happy for this day to wish all my friends and family a Happy Valentines Day!

Thanks for the wonderful friendship, the care, concern, love, humour, fun, jokes, runs shared .... Life would be black & white without you all :)

May all of you enjoy this day with your loved ones.  And for those like me who are single, enjoy this day too and say a word of Thanks to the wonderful people around you :)

Stretchhhh

hahaha .... 

so cute .... 

This is sooo me :P

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CNY Mood

I want to take leave to enjoy my fav festival of the year, but i can't find the time!!!

Arghhhh .... 

I want to enjoy the Gong Xi Fa Cai mood!

I want to shop shop shop!

Though I am so NOT domesticated, but I do need to clean my room 

.... And my office cubicle is desperately in need of a good cleaning too... my area is beyond messy and totally unbecoming (for a female - as I've been told many times) and unprofessional!  i'm ashamed of meself! 

I want to have some quiet time .... the past 1+ months with the school holidays, everywhere in this little island is just-So-PACKED!!!  I'm just looking forward to a nice relaxing quiet weekday afternoon out in orchard ... (oh, but yah, still have those tertiary students :P)

I must try to keep one day next week free of any mtgs .... or important work to follow-up with ... Yes, ME MUST! *determined*

Reflections

Happy New Year to one and all!!!

Hahaha, yes yes, I know this post is very much delayed but I guess I wasn't ready to write down my thoughts about 2008.  Don't think I'm still very much sorted out with my thoughts .... and I guessed I hadn't achieve anything worthwhile in 2008.  Gosh, I felt like I've wasted another year ... 

Nonetheless, some thoughts to round up 2008 

1. Glad that I returned to my running routine in Feb.  It wasn't smooth sailing at the start, and I stopped for a while before returning to it in Mar.  I've come a long way.  From starting with 3km and gradually increasing, and sometimes returning to square one ... and I guessed it was such a milestone for me when I finally crossed the 10km mark.  I was glad for a gym instructress advice "just tell urself u can do it!".  So each time I thought of giving up, especially while training for the SBR, i just kept repeating this same mantra to myself. It worked!  I'm glad that I managed to complete SBR this year.
2. Just checking back my old posts and my NY Resolution for 2008 was "To improve my health".  In a way I think I achieved it.  Nope, I didn't lose weight, but I think that wasn't my resolution.  But yes, I am glad that I stuck to my gym routines and my runs.  Though the runs are slow, but I guessed the lone mrn runs did help keep me sane.  Looking back, I'm kinda proud of myself for sticking to the routine even at my darkest moments in 2008.
3. Did a make-over of my room.  Totally cleaned up my space, dumped all the old unwanted stuff and had a fresh coat of paint and complete new look for my room.  I now spend more time in my cosy little corner - and all this wouldn't have been possible without the wonderful help from my closest friend HY.  Thanks gal!
4. Managed to make several trips this year.  KL in Mar.  BKK in May.  Japan in July/Aug.  Cameron Highlands in Oct.  I had fun in all the trips.  My first trip to Japan and I was really in awe of the place, especially Hokkaido.  Even though I wasn't that impressed with the hussle and bussle of Tokyo, I really wouldn't mind going back!  Cameron Highlands was also a wonderful trip made with some very wonderful people.  I dunno about them but I enjoyed their company immersely, and the place is oh-so-serene and beautiful.
5. I'm happy and thankful for the few but wonderful good friends around.  In a way I think friends are with you for a season.  Somehow no matter what happens, friends come and go. Maybe its me.  But nonetheless, I treasure the handful of wonderful friends that I have.  Many friendships were forged in SGRunners and I'm happy that these are friends to keep.  I shall not name anyone here but I'm just glad for this wonderful group of people.  Its funny how though I put in so much time and energy at work, what pleased me most isn't the end-result of the piece of work.  Rather, its the comraderie, or the friendships that I established that warms my heart and brings this contented smile on my face.  Really.  I'm happy to know two wonderful co-workers whom are now more than just colleagues.  One will cheer me up when I'm down, the other guides me along with her intelligence, confidence and easy air.  I'm thankful for them.  I'm also touched by the friendships made with my ex-users, whom I am closer to now because we still chat and catch up over lunch.  I feel a bigger sense of accomplishment keeping them as friends then when we completed a big project together. 
6. There are of course sad & depressing moments.  Moments that I doubt myself.  Moments that i just wonder, what's the point (in fact I still think that all the time! :P).  There was also a very difficult patch that I went through lately ... but I guessed no matter how painful, there is always a lesson to be learnt.   
7. My one regret is not partaking in any charity-related project this year.  Could be attributed mainly to laziness and lack of opportunity (but mainly laziness and inertia ba).  Let's hope I'll get off my lazy bum and do something this year. 

Geez, was just browsing back the past entries and was surprised some of the entries were so long ago though they felt like they only happened couple of months back!  Time truly flies! 

NY Resolutions for 2009 ?

Hmmm ... typically I refrain from making any.  Yes, the defeatist concept.  Don't even want to attempt to make any so I don't have to feel like I've failed to keep to them :P

But seriously, I just have four for myself:

1. To be more positive.  Stop walking around with a rain cloud hovering above me.  Its really tough coz I'm such a grumpy pessimist.  But yes, i'll try.
2. To not spend as much energy at work.  No, I don't work very hard, but I think perhaps I got to relax a little and not let the job gets to me.  Time to re-prioritise what's important in life.
3. To continue with my exercise routine so as to keep fit and sane.   
4. To go on a trip to Europe.

There, no  specific targets to reach (such as to complete a marathon or to pass an exam etc.).   I'll prolly have to think harder about what I want to achieve this year.

2 More Days ....

to the end of yet another year...

This year passed exceptionally fast.  I didn't achieve anything and another year has just passed me by.... geez.

My biggest regret this year would be not taking on any charity related project.  No fund raising, nothing.  Oops.

As for 2009.  I'm reflecting upon and questioning some of my beliefs.  

Perhaps I have been wrong all this while in some of my principles, my beliefs and its time to seriously reflect ....   

And I'm also relooking my priorities in life.  Its time to do some re-prioritisation ... and some personal house keeping.  There are so many clutter in me that I have to dump.  I just wish there is an easy way to do this emotional personal spring cleaning.

To a better year ahead !  Not just to me, but to everyone else :)

Goodbye Mizuno

Oh you have served me well for the past
9 months.

All the pounding, the rain, the sweat ... 

And now I have no choice but to let you retire

Thanks for the wonderful 9 months ... you have been my great companion 

Look at the state of my right sole. It is completely worn out ... sign of over-pronation

pravsworld

Received this from my user this mrn.

Its so true ... 

Many many more here ...

Wedding

For me, attending wedding is NEVER a want, but an obligation.  And I ... just .... DREAD .... weddings.

But today is different.  Today is the wedding of my dear cousin.  Someone whom I never keep in contact (not directly at least), but whom he and his family will always be dear in my heart.  That's because I was taken care of by my wonderful maternal grandma who was staying with this family when I was younger.

His was a simple and tastefully done solemnisation and wedding reception lunch at Ritz Carlton.  I'm just very happy to see him happy and blissfully married.  Very happy for my auntie and uncle, who are getting on in age, and very pleased to see their youngest child doing well in life and getting married today.

My cousin gave a short but yet sweet speech to thank the family and friends.  But most important of all, he thanked our grandma for his upbringing, for the life lessons.  I do agree that its because of my grandma that he has turned out to be such a fine young man.  He is polite and respectful to elders.

One wedding that I am happy to attend, and I just wish them the very best.

I'm a happy gal today :)

Happy Birthday, TL!!!

Just wanted to wish my dear friend TL a very very happy birthday.

May you succeed in whatever you set your heart and mind to doing ... 

and enjoy good health, happiness and PBs always!

:) 

Happy Tots

Many nice things to be thankful for, so I'm clinging to these happy tots .... so as to keep my mind off some unhappiness. I've few friends, but for those few that I keep, I'm thankful for them.

I'm thankful to HY for the lovely gift of this cute doll ... it would shake/nod its head when it senses a sound ... very pretty little thing.   This cutie keeps me company at work, on my work desk.   :)

This chocolate royale from Gloria Jeans was sinfully yummy.  Very rich and satisfying.  Had this with friend over lunch last week.  Been a while since we last caught up, very kind of him to specifically come over to meet me for lunch, to check on me and see how I was doing.  Thanks, D!

Meringue from The Pattisier.  My wonderful sweet colleague got me this.  It was a busy day and we were both busy trying to get something out for boss by end of the day.  It was a mad rush.  She got this during lunch, while buying one for her daughter.  So sweet of her.  This gesture warmed my heart.  Thanks, G!

On Friday, had lunch with a friend whom we haven't met nor kept in touch for a very very long time.  He noticed that I hadn't been at my best in recent weeks and had asked about me, and organised this lunch to catch up.  I am touched.  Amidst his very busy schedule, and his 1001 more important things to do, he had bothered to catch up with an unknown someone like me.  I really appreciate that kind thought.  Thanks, L!  It was very nice to finally catch up with you.

And while still feeling blessed from after lunch, I came back to see a little gift waiting for me on my desk.  HY has sent me a little something - a cute little torchlight that said "It doesn't rain forever".  How true.  She has a similar torchlight and found it useful so bought one for me.  How sweet.  I was smiling so broadly upon opening up to see the gift.  

There is also HL who will constantly msn to check on me.  Though she has problems of her own, she is always around for me and will login to check on me.  Thanks gal!

Lastly A, whom I had been sms-ing occassionally.  We have been supporting each other over sms, just to make sure we both are still doing well and hanging on.  Thanks, A!

So yes, I have lots to feel blessed about.  Been a rough few weeks but I can't say I didn't learn from the lesson, and also that I'm richer for the experience and also for the wonderful people surrounding me.  You never know who are true to you until you are in need ...