Fat me

Been just eating and eating and more eating. And the bad habit gets worse at night! I'm not hungry but I just keep reaching for snacks. And more snacks. And yet more snacks! Damn! I'm looking more and more like Lydia Sum each day ...

Went for a spin during lunchtime yesterday. Just needed to get out of the office and forget about how life is ... Got on this bike which the resistance I'm unfamiliar with. A little turn up and it got really tough ... but a little turn down and it gets too easy. And it has to be the day that one of my fav instructor, Faye, has to "pick" on me. "J, turn up a little", "Well done J, don't give up now!", "J, you can do better!" I was only feeling that I'm getting the hang of spin classes and now I feel like I'm back to the first day back in spinning class. I felt sooo tired after the 2nd song, and by the 3rd I was hopelessly breathless!! *pant pant* *sweat buckets*

Nonetheless, its a good workout to ease myself back to another few hours back in the office, and to make up for the thousands of calories that I put inside me. I know I'm hurting my body but I just can't stop. ARGH! I can sense my body breaking down from all the unhealthy sinful things that I subject myself to. Fats should be dangerously high and bad cholestrol must have skyrocketed.

I think I need to check myself into some real bootcamp. To be tortured.