DON'T Read This...

This is a blog entry more for my own venting ... so pls DO NOT read ...

Suddenly feel damn sian all over again. Everyone is getting ready for bed, all packed & set for the big day tomorrow - Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon. If only I haven't been injured, I would be just like them, all ready, making sure that I have everything with me and tucking myself in bed by 9pm so that I'll be all fresh and ready tomorrow.

I know I have griped and whined and complained and cried about it for the past 2 months and whoever has been reading this blog must be super sian by now (hey, I told u not to read! and anyway, blogging is my main outlet for all these frustrations. If I can't even blog about them, think I'll just explode) While I'm happy and game to be supporting my dear SGRunners tomorrow at the 30km mark, it sure doesn't feel good to be left out in the cold not being able to run. No, pls. I don't need sympathy, and I'm not asking for any. I just want to get this off my system else I'll be so miserable.

If only there is some miracle drug that can heal me right now, if only ....

I even feel pain right now, after spending a few hours shopping this afternoon. Doc has said I might need to rest for 2 months minimum... what the hell is wrong that I have to rest for so long ?? There isn't even a definitive cause to my injury, and whether resting for 2 months will help. So what after all the rest ? What if I still can't run ? Then what ? I know no one has the answers to my frustration, not even the docs. Rationally I know, but that doesn't mean I don't feel sad ...

Everytime i pass by some places that I have ran before, a tinge of sadness will wash over me. Those places remind me of my "running days". I miss running so much ... :_(
When can I resume running ?

Haizzzzzz .....