Ok, enough procrastinating and with the mounting pressure from the press that registrations are fast filling up and they will close once they hit 30,000 registrations, I have to bite the bullet, act NOW and register for SCSM.
Frankly, at the very last minute I was still undecided about whether to go full or half.
I wanted to go for HALF because I'm comfortable with HALF and I know I can do it comfortably (not gunning for any timing lah).
I wanted to go for FULL because I thought it would be a real challenge for me, pushing my limits and most important of all, I'll be doing it for charity. However, deep inside of me there is this fear that I'm pushing myself too hard, that I'm definitely unprepared and not ready for FULL yet. Whenever I thought of going for FULL, the image of me struggling at the 30th km just popped up in my head. I was afraid that in a bid to challenge myself, I might end up hurting myself. So much for being too cautious. Someone did say that the way I think, its like I wouldn't even want to venture out of the house lest I get hit by a car. Hmmmm its pretty apt but .... Last but not least, I was afraid that I might end up killing my interest in running if I "over-run" now.
Weighing all these ... I decided to just heck it and sign up for the ................ HALF marathon. Bummer rite ? What a let-down ? Yeah, I'm actually quite disappointed with myself the minute I click CONFIRM and the confirmation went through. COWARD i told myself.
Ok lah, what's decided and done cannot be undone, irreversible. Anyway, now that I have lost a pledge of $5/km if I run FULL, I think I have to channel my energies to finding more donors to make up for the $210 that I "lost". Anyone game to pledge to my card ?? :P
Ah well, I'll still continue to run, and train and see how far I can go by Dec. Even though I wouldn't be running the FULL, I hope to be able to lend support by being at the 30+++km to cheer my dear SGRunners friends doing the FULL distance.
Ok, decision made, let's move on .... I may consider a FULL early part of next year. An overseas one, just for the experience & thrill of it. Any suggestions ?
5 comments:
Fear Not! There is always another marathon waiting for u!
continue joining in the runs for marathon training this year and see how u feel when the LSD increased to 30km......
That's y running a marathon is requires training and planning strategy just like going for war....but this time, the enemy is your own body
know your enemy and the battle should be won
Hey KJ! I fully support your decision to run the half marathon in SCSM 06 :) There is a lot to learn from running half marathons, and a few 21km runs will help you understand your running style better.
Great that you will continue to join in the LSDs. If you keep this up, I'm sure that you will be more than ready to face your first full marathon next year! What about going for the KLIM? :P
u wont be able to make it to the 30km mark to lent the support in time....:) You can setup a pom pom team around Esplanade stretch to cheers us....haha...
There is always the next 42k out there... Hopefully you don't hit your head too many times till 4th Dec, questioning ur decision....:)
enjoy the lighter burden on the shoulder with better runs ahead.
1/2 is perfectly fine :)
i've never done a full marathon overseas...think it's more relaxed to run a half overseas :)
hey gal!
21km is definitely jus as good!
yay! decision made finally...!
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