I realise that for some matters, no matter how much I prepared myself for it. Tell myself that a particular disappointing scenario would be the most likely outcome (99.999%). But when it indeed happens, I still can't bear the fact. I still feel sad and lousy and disappointed.

Guess some things, you just can't be prepared for.

And I'm trying to remind myself that everything happens for a reason. It might seem painful now, but hopefully it leads to great things in future.

This is tough.