Busy week

A busy week at work because I'm on course the whole week. The course is really intensive and leave me no time to day dream nor check my emails even in between breaks. However, I like this course very much as this is one course that I have been hoping to take but been procrastinating. Thankfully procrastination pays off here else I would have plonked in $4K for this course if I were to take it on my own!!

Anyway, this explains why I've been so busy too ...

Missed the CBD run on Tues due to my less-than-satisfactory mood on Tues and also coz of the haze .... Received this very unpleasant work email early on Tues morning that got me really demoralised and down-hearted. Threw me off course completely, especially since it was sent by the top management. Haizzzz .. such is life. But well, I have gotten over it by now ... The haze was very bad on tuesday though and it just seemed to get worse as the day progresses. By the time it was 5+pm, and as i looked out the window, the buildings across looked so hazy ...
Ended up working til 8+pm that night .. bummer

Managed to squeeze in a run on Wed morning to make up for my missing the CBD run. The haze is normally not as thick nor bad in the mornings, so I figured I will have to do more early morning runs for the next couple of days (hopefully not weeks!!! *prays hard*). But whether I have the discipline to wake up early to run so often is another thing altogether. If anyone wants to run early in the morning in CBD, or to run from HSP to CBD, plss let me know in advance (if u dun mind me tagging along at a slow pace that is!!!)

At the work front, feeling damn crap. The course, although very interesting, is making me lose all confidence in myself. I feel TOTALLY STUPID & RETARDED in the course. We have to take loads of mock tests during the course (about 6 to 9 tests per day!) and I scored soooo badly yesterday (not that the other days I was doing really well) while the rest of my course mates were cruising along scoring very well! What is wrong with me??? Why is my stupid brain sooooo slow in comprehending the concepts ???? Why am I not getting the concepts right?!?!? WHY WHY WHY!? Just feel really crappy, and with the loads of work piling up and the tons of emails I have got to clear, I just feel even more demoralised, dejected and unhappy. A very lousy Wednesday for me. Meeting up with Divey & Roentgen for lunch provided such a respite from the unhappiness I was going through. (Roentgen ? Lunch ? Coz Roentgen was on leave on Wednesday and just had to try the Annie's Ice Kacang that we so often mentioned and so arranged to have lunch with us so that he could try the famous ice kacang. Unfortunately, the ice kacang at Tanjong Pagar market was really a disappointment. So not worth the hype. But nevermind, let's leave this to be covered in the food blog. Akan Datang)

Alright, I have vented enough for now. I just hope today will be kinder to me. Really hate this "I-AM-FREAKING-STUPID-AND-RETARD" feeling that is eating me up. Just hope my little RETARD brain can work a little better today .... pray hard for me

Gosh, I can't wait for the weekend to be here ....

RETARD&STRESSEDJazzy