Having a hard time thinking of a name for my run this morning. Very disappointed, disturbed run....
This is a run that almost didn't happen. Blame it on the weak mind, and lack of discipline & motivation (why am I losing the motivation to run??? :_( ). Alarm sounded at 4am, but I was feeling soo sian I didn't want to run. Tossed and turned for a good 15mins, and finally pulled myself up. I recalled what Taz told me just last night, that I will feel better after a run. And I have read in many articles saying the same thing. That on days when I just dun feel like running, just promise urself to head out, run a little. Most of the time I will feel better after starting the run.
Unfortunately, that didn't happen for me ...
Been having the same problems with my left leg since Wed and woke up feeling pain on my left calf. Tight. *worried* With my ipod, money, keys and personal alarm (thanks to my bro who bought this for me knowing that i sometimes run alone), I started my run at about 4:40am.
Started real slowly, limping for the first few steps. Didn't want to take the same HSP route I did several weeks (or months) back, so decided to head in the complete opposite direction.
Didn't feel good throughout the run, legs just feel very tired and checked my HR and realised I didn't even hit 72% of my max HR!! Just goes to show how slow I was going due to my incompetent legs. Felt very crappy and the route didn't help because there were way too many slopes for me. As usual, I just headed straight, passing by several prata/muslim cafes along the way. At some point I even stopped to walk coz I just dun feel good enough. *scream inside me* Finally reached Serangoon MRT about 30 mins into the run. Ok, at least now I know for sure how to run to Serangoon MRT from my place. Slowly proceeded on to Kovan (seems never-ending somehow) before hitting the usual stretch that I run (Serangoon Park Connector) that leads me back to Ponggol Park. The usual route would be to run to Ponggol, before returning to Sengkang then my place. But my legs were just not behaving and I decided to just terminate the run. Walked to the kpt (kopitiam) opposite Ponggol Park, bought myself a drink before slowly trotting home. It was only at the last few hundred meters when I spotted this mother & young son duo out for their morning run. The mother was really competitive and refused to let me overtake her -_-" egging her son on to SPRINT! wah lau eh ... pity me lah, I'm already half dead really! :P
Reached back my place 1 hr 30mins later feeling all defeated. I'm not sure what is wrong with me and my legs, but all doesn't seem to bode well. Am more worried now, and reviewing what Aichai mentioned to me, I just hope its nothing very serious. Should I really just lay off running for now ?? But its almost ridiculous just thinking about it. hey, I'm not even a hard-core runner. I don't run fast, I don't do intervals and I don't run super long distances! I don't even run daily! So why am i have this problem ???
ARGH!!!
*pull hair*
Though I feel crap about the run, I still am glad that at least I went out to do a short run/limp/walk. Lift my spirits a little .... at least just a teenie weenie bit ....
and Thank Heavens Its Thur Already ....
TrichotillomaniacJazzy
10 comments:
is part and parcel of running to ahve mental, emotional or physical wall at one point or another..
a switch to other sports like cycling....or just go for a short holiday to break the daily routine might helps
Are you having a mid-life crisis like me? Nope, can’t be, you are too young for that. Don’t push yourself too hard to find out an answer why you are feeling this way, dear. Take baby steps; focus on one thing at a time and not the whole big issue. Find out from the known to the unknown. (oops, my ‘trademark’ for my job).
If you legs are giving you a problem, seek professional advises to eliminate the worries or solve the problem, if any. Don’t forget running is to help us to keep fit and healthy and not the other way round, i.e. causing more harm or injury to our body.
No motivation in running, perhaps it has becomes a routine that you need to find a way to break through to find joy in it once again. Many Si Fu(s) out there will give you the tested solutions/advises. I am not qualify.
Well, now and then, we will be hit/haunt by a lot of negative issues and thoughts. Don’t be discouraged, hang in there, SMM. Enjoy the journey and experiences, being good or bad.
You Can Do It! Impossible Is Nothing!
Sorry for such a longwinded comment. Lao Liao Ma.
Relax eh,,, and whats TrichotillomaniacJazzy
Better then me, this week , my runs = 0 .. woohooo
dun pull, dun pull.. dun pull ur hair, gal!!!
u're on your way to feeling better and less kah-sng!! u'll be able to run fast-fast soon enuff! :)
hang in there, dear.
Hey KJ xiao mei!
Glad to hear that you managed to pull yourself out of bed for a short run-limp-walk :P
Please don't "beat" yourself during this comparatively low point in your running journey. It is perfectly normal to have various "walls" like Taz referred to. The indescribable sian-ness is something that many of us have encountered before, and will definitely encounter again.
With regards to your calf pain hmmm... if it continues to trouble you, may be worth it to get a medical opinion. Continue to moderate your distance and duration for runs in the meantime okay? :)
tazzie di di : Thanks. Just hope i can scale this wall real soon! "D" is hitting me coz of all these! Tks for ur advices. Yes, maybe i shall learn to cycle in ECP while u guys run :P
Shwee JT buddy , THANK YOU for the note. VEry VEry wise & sound advices! *bow* I'm humbled. :) Yes, will consult the Si Fus about how to "re-ignite" my joy in running. Think I still enjoy running, just that my recent spate of kah tias is making running a pain literally.
teelee : trichotillomania = me
a person with a medical condition who pulls out her hair - chunks of it somemore! :P
Divey gal: Tks ! I hope so too that I will be up & runnning real soon :) *hugz*
Hello California Bones kor2!
yup yup, will rest for now ... tks for the advices.
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