Reflections

Happy New Year to one and all!!!

Hahaha, yes yes, I know this post is very much delayed but I guess I wasn't ready to write down my thoughts about 2008.  Don't think I'm still very much sorted out with my thoughts .... and I guessed I hadn't achieve anything worthwhile in 2008.  Gosh, I felt like I've wasted another year ... 

Nonetheless, some thoughts to round up 2008 

1. Glad that I returned to my running routine in Feb.  It wasn't smooth sailing at the start, and I stopped for a while before returning to it in Mar.  I've come a long way.  From starting with 3km and gradually increasing, and sometimes returning to square one ... and I guessed it was such a milestone for me when I finally crossed the 10km mark.  I was glad for a gym instructress advice "just tell urself u can do it!".  So each time I thought of giving up, especially while training for the SBR, i just kept repeating this same mantra to myself. It worked!  I'm glad that I managed to complete SBR this year.
2. Just checking back my old posts and my NY Resolution for 2008 was "To improve my health".  In a way I think I achieved it.  Nope, I didn't lose weight, but I think that wasn't my resolution.  But yes, I am glad that I stuck to my gym routines and my runs.  Though the runs are slow, but I guessed the lone mrn runs did help keep me sane.  Looking back, I'm kinda proud of myself for sticking to the routine even at my darkest moments in 2008.
3. Did a make-over of my room.  Totally cleaned up my space, dumped all the old unwanted stuff and had a fresh coat of paint and complete new look for my room.  I now spend more time in my cosy little corner - and all this wouldn't have been possible without the wonderful help from my closest friend HY.  Thanks gal!
4. Managed to make several trips this year.  KL in Mar.  BKK in May.  Japan in July/Aug.  Cameron Highlands in Oct.  I had fun in all the trips.  My first trip to Japan and I was really in awe of the place, especially Hokkaido.  Even though I wasn't that impressed with the hussle and bussle of Tokyo, I really wouldn't mind going back!  Cameron Highlands was also a wonderful trip made with some very wonderful people.  I dunno about them but I enjoyed their company immersely, and the place is oh-so-serene and beautiful.
5. I'm happy and thankful for the few but wonderful good friends around.  In a way I think friends are with you for a season.  Somehow no matter what happens, friends come and go. Maybe its me.  But nonetheless, I treasure the handful of wonderful friends that I have.  Many friendships were forged in SGRunners and I'm happy that these are friends to keep.  I shall not name anyone here but I'm just glad for this wonderful group of people.  Its funny how though I put in so much time and energy at work, what pleased me most isn't the end-result of the piece of work.  Rather, its the comraderie, or the friendships that I established that warms my heart and brings this contented smile on my face.  Really.  I'm happy to know two wonderful co-workers whom are now more than just colleagues.  One will cheer me up when I'm down, the other guides me along with her intelligence, confidence and easy air.  I'm thankful for them.  I'm also touched by the friendships made with my ex-users, whom I am closer to now because we still chat and catch up over lunch.  I feel a bigger sense of accomplishment keeping them as friends then when we completed a big project together. 
6. There are of course sad & depressing moments.  Moments that I doubt myself.  Moments that i just wonder, what's the point (in fact I still think that all the time! :P).  There was also a very difficult patch that I went through lately ... but I guessed no matter how painful, there is always a lesson to be learnt.   
7. My one regret is not partaking in any charity-related project this year.  Could be attributed mainly to laziness and lack of opportunity (but mainly laziness and inertia ba).  Let's hope I'll get off my lazy bum and do something this year. 

Geez, was just browsing back the past entries and was surprised some of the entries were so long ago though they felt like they only happened couple of months back!  Time truly flies! 

NY Resolutions for 2009 ?

Hmmm ... typically I refrain from making any.  Yes, the defeatist concept.  Don't even want to attempt to make any so I don't have to feel like I've failed to keep to them :P

But seriously, I just have four for myself:

1. To be more positive.  Stop walking around with a rain cloud hovering above me.  Its really tough coz I'm such a grumpy pessimist.  But yes, i'll try.
2. To not spend as much energy at work.  No, I don't work very hard, but I think perhaps I got to relax a little and not let the job gets to me.  Time to re-prioritise what's important in life.
3. To continue with my exercise routine so as to keep fit and sane.   
4. To go on a trip to Europe.

There, no  specific targets to reach (such as to complete a marathon or to pass an exam etc.).   I'll prolly have to think harder about what I want to achieve this year.